Monday, June 12, 2006

annnnndddd 6 months later...

LOL yes.. its been sometime since I've posted on here..

Thyroid is fine..

Moods are fine...

I have been working like a maniac in the NICU .... 108 hours the last pay period... I'm moving to day shift soon .. which is great... Scott and kids will be happy...

They tried to call me in for today and I was like.. umm no ... Boy's promotion to high school is tomorrow and i have classes today for work as well .. so .. I'm going to take everyone's advice and "Just say NO" :P

I cannot believe I have both kids in high school now... where does the time go ... its funny .. I'll be barely 40 and have both kids in college... guess Scott and I can run off and do stuff then ..

As long as my computer can go with me too :P

Hope everyone is well... need to check on my friends to see what they are up to on here.. its been a long while...

Been blogging too much on Yahoo 360 .. and MySpace.. and well... okay I even have a Live Journal.... but mostly I blog on Yahoo 360 and MySpace it seems...

anyhooow... Boy just made me french toast.. I'm going to like this summer vacation stuff :P

Tuesday, January 17, 2006


Okay I know its been MONTHS since my last post... blah .. Hmmm lets see.

I passed nursing school... although I was not too sure I could do it.. eeep
I got hired for the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit at the hospital but havent been able to start yet because the State hasnt sent me paperwork for my Interim Permit.. which at this point is okay .. because.. I need some time off before I start doing something else.

But I really need to get the paperwork to sign up for my test date.. for the good ole Licensing Boards... ack ... yes.... must not only pass nursing school but have to pass a test with random scary multiple choice questions... bah

All my previous classmates are signed up ...

I will call if I dont get that paperwork darn soon .... because of course.. they have already cashed the check... bastards.. :P

Girl is fine... got back together with one of her beaus.. and he dumped her .. again... do we EVER learn? I think not.

Boy is making me crazy .. I am sorry I didnt write some of his exploits on here... basically .. found cigarettes on him.. and been rumored that he was with some kids who were drinking beer. Of course I have flashbacks to my own childhood and I think ... hmm.. they are going to blame the mother on this one aren't they?

Because I had so much to do this semester.. and little time for him ... so obviously its my fault.. well blah ..

Now Scott wants me to "talk" to the Boy about the hair tonight.. and how it needs to stay out of his eyes.. or it gets cut off...blah ..

I'm going to hate the teenage years I can tell you already .... Scott and the Boy are probably going to have some lovely fights.. and I cant' stand fighting..all that PTSD crap makes me nervous and anxious around fighting.. but... hey .. maybe we can get a good rate at family therapy.. :P

So basically .. I'm catching up on a lot of reading I've missed in the last.. 3 years since I've gone to school fulltime... I havent done too much yet.. but enjoyed what I have so far.

Taking it easy on the RPG front... been spending too much time online with people from there.. and need to step away.

So... treadmill.. hahaha... yes.. back on it.. I was doing really well with the Weight Watchers and treadmill for a while.. till I got too stressed out near the end of the semester.. and gained everything back and didnt exercise...

Now my doctor is going to kill me .. cause.. I ran out of my piggy thyroid prescription and started taking the Synthroid again .. which has made me a basket case... teary all the time.. and freeezing my ass off... so ... will have to call his office.. but not go in .. because Blue Cross dumped me. Well okay .. things have been kind of whacko here and I forgot to pay the premium and they canceled now.. I have all this Synthroid.. *sighs* ...but .. no piggy thryoid meds... which I need.

Why do I set myself up for failure? I dunno.. but I have just noticed the pattern... setting bills aside.. forgetting to pay them on time... cancelled insurance.. screwed up health... not taking care of myself.. eating everything thats wrong.... BLAH ..

So.. back on Weight Watchers and treadmill 30 minutes a day.. I'm pretty sure it wont kill me.. but .. might wanna poke me every once in a while to make sure.. :P

Also will be studying for the NCLEX Boards.. I have every NCLEX review book out there... I think.. and I also bought a neonatal book .. I need to keep up on things and get ready for the licensing board test.. nervous....

If I fail .. I have to wait another 45 days to take it again .. AND they yank my Interim permit so I can't work... :( Yeah ... so bit nervous there..

okay .. nough gabbing... hope all are well...

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Less than 2 months to go!

I've made it through a paper which I got an 80 percent on... (blah) and I've made it through one test, a respectable 85, and now I await the score of the second test. Which I'm hoping will be another 85-ish.

Have to work on a huge Community Health paper.. not exactly looking forward to. My last paper my instructor gave me an 80 on. I had worked pretty hard on it I thought, but apparently I didnt explain the assessment well enough or something. NO idea.

So have been working in ICU for school the past two weekends. I really like it, although its quite scary to have patients on ventilators. Have to be able to deal well with death to be working there it seems.

My nurse today said I was a bit "apprehensive" when I was doing things with the patient. But then she said that was good and for a while, I will be apprehensive because I'm new. At any rate, she said I did well, and I am happy with that.

Still dont know what dept I want to work in. I am leaning toward NICU, but having second thoughts on the hospital I want to work for. The other hospital I consider working for does not have a Neonatal dept. or a real pediatric dept either. It has a small pediatric/Med Surg unit on one of the floors. Those nurses were great and never had a complaint at all from them or about them.

So, I'm still at the .. "have no idea stage" I have to make up my mind pretty soon though. Cause i have to interview for the position early. There are 63 students graduating in December so there will be some competition for the positions.

Then I have to fill out my application to take the NCLEX boards soon as well. Scary scary.

Anyhow.. working on life.. stuff.. etc..

Lost bout 4 pounds.. in 3 weeks, not too bad... I think I've gained some muscle as well. woot woot. Piggy thyroid seems to be working on my moodage and my fatigue too. So I think I'm doing quite alright :D

Sunday, October 02, 2005

The wonderful world of weight

OKey so its been ... almost two weeks since I've been Weight Watchers and doing treadmill Monday thru Friday... and I feel... better.. :D Yayyyyyy!

I've also been taking the piggy thyroid.. :P I crack up at that.. yes its kinda gross.. pig thryoid.. but hey .. obviously they didnt need it anymore.. and I do ... so .. my mood hasnt changed that much .. but its only been two weeks.. they say it takes like 3 to 4 for the thyroid to start really getting in there. So they say.. we'll see..

I'm still rather hopeless at school right now.. I dropped my arrhythmias class because it was a class i didnt really need. It was also another night I had to go to school.. so instead I will study at home.

Other than that.. I made a Yahoo 360 blog page.. I find it a bit more friendly than here for two reasons.. one I have more friends from my RPG game on that blog who comment and steal stuff from my blog.. LOL.. and number two .. its more friendly for me to post pictures.. etc.. this blog site I havent ever gotten the hang of it.. or changing the colors or anything on this blog.. so I suppose I will be posting over there more..

But will try to keep this one for a while.

thats me.. if you are looking..

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Thyroid update

Cuz I know everyone is waiting with bated breath .. hahahah

OK.. so doctor says... you know what I'm going to ask you arent you?

I said.. *sighs*

He said.. How in the world did you gain 12 pounds in 3 months?

I'm like.. ummmmm

Pick one... stress, sedentary study lifestyle, I'm tired, fatigued, I eat like crap, I dont have a thyroid function.. even tho you say those labs are correct.. I think they lie..

Soooo he said.. okey well then .. I want you to do some cardio... walking.. treadmill... jogging.. etc etc..

I was like.. ok .. I have a treadmill.

He's like.. umm you have a treadmill and you dont use it because?

refer to above answer as to why I gained the 12 pounds in the first place.

Sooooo long story short..

He wants me on the treadmill for 30 mins a day... and to start Weight Watchers.. in in return he changed my medication to the Armor thyroid replacement that has both T3 and T4 in it.

Then in 3 months I go back and we check out how I'm doing.

So.. he said.. you arent taking that Beta Blocker anymore are you? I said.. nope.. he said good.. so just hte birth control and the Synthroid.. and I said.. weeeeeelll bout that birth control pill.

He said.. oh do you want another baby?

I said.. ummm no

He said.. weeeeeeeell?

OKey .. so back on birth control pills.

Now you all know where I'm at.. :P

More than you wanted to know bout me ...


Raining.. in So Cal

So here I am .. middle of desert in California.. and yes.. thunderstorm.. which I of course think is awesome.. however, no one can drive.

Well .. the truth .. we dont have seasons here.. Its warm, hot, and jeeezus christ.. I've found hell... and its here..

So, it rains a little and people panic.

They drive their kids to school cause they are afraid the kid might get wet. What the hell happened to .. "It's raining!!! yayaay" splash splash puddle puddle.. off to the bus stop..

So, I took my kid to school today .. but I drive her everyday... cause.. I dont want my kid to be abducted... so .. of course.. everyone elses parent drove them.. if you can call it driving.. to school as well..

They are all on their phones, not loooking where they are going.. and bascially a bunch of fuckwads at large..

My favorite is when you are trying to turn right and they keep moving forward so you can't see beyond the front of their BMW ..and you hope a big trash truck will come by and rip off the front of their car.. muhuwahahhah

I hate people on cell phones when they obviously can't drive, the ones who chat in the toilet, or are in the classroom on the phone..

Trust me people, you are NOT that important that you can't take a shit without the phone stuck to your ear.

Scary thing..

So Saturdya night, next door neighbors having a party .. *sighs* and Sunday morning i have to get up at 5:30 am. But I go to bed relatively early, hey I have children, i can sleep through anything right?

Fell asleep, .. no problem.. up at 5:30 went to the hospital.

Got home... S asks me.. hey .. was the News crew out there when you left this morning? I was like.. umm.. no.. why do you ask? He said because they knocked on the door about 7:30 am this morning.. apparently some kid was shot and died out front this morning.


So I figured.. naaaah they have the wrong street. We dont live on the wrong side of town.. they made a mistake.

He said the news guys said it was on this street in this block. So, then he went ont to say it was at 6 am. Okey I left at 6:15 am .. so now even more freaked.

We stayed up and watched the news Sunday night. Sure enough, kid was shot, "found" shot, in the middle of our street Sunday at 12:30 am, not 6:00 am. Which is still freaky, because the kid was pretty much shot in the middle of the street almost directly in front of our house.

I didnt hear it, the music from the party was up too loud. S had been complaining to the cops since 11 pm, and they were too busy to come out to tell them to turn the music down. Well gee now a kid is dead. Granted, I'm sure the cops were busy .. but the dispatchers lately have been really bitchy about when people in our neighborhood call to complain about party noise. Like we are just supposed to deal with it. Well, when some of us work.. and have to get up early .. and arent complete fuckheads with an attitude.. then yes, I do expect someone to come out and tlel them to turn it down. I'd like to reiterate.. I do not live in a bad neighborhood.

We do however have next door neighbors that I believe are actually two familes living in that house and they have kids.. kids throw parties.. usually their parties are family oriented with cake.. carne asada (yum) and beer ... music loud... etc...

I dont know if the kid who was shot was at the party .. or was at the house kitty corner from us.. cause.. okey now those individuals are a bit... shady... so yeah I suppose it could be gang related.. or drug related..

It was just a bit shocking to see it on the News.. the camera caught our house... . just weird.

Then I felt bad for this kid's mother. The 18 yr old male was shot, found shot, so no witnesses, they took him to the hospital where he later died.

Very sad.. what a waste.

Friday, September 16, 2005

Graduation and more stuff

I graduate from nursing school in 3 months exactly from this date.

Yes, we did impeach the class president. But she said she wuite before we actually impeached her. eh whatever. So we kind of forgot to factor in we had to do all this work since she had done nothing in the 12 months she was in office.

So we are arranging photographers, ordering invitations, ordering pins, getting the programs organized, etc etc.

Along with the papers, tests, and school requirements for this scary semester. ER, ICU and Cardiac. We are in Cardiac right now. Makes it fun to watch "House"...

"He's in bradycardia"

Give him Atropine! I shout at the TV.. ... and lo and behold.. .in the TV world.. they followed my advice.. course.. they were scripted to.. but it was nice to actually know what they were talking about..and to order the correct medications.. LOL

Hmm.. well and my finances are in the crapper.. but hey .. in 3 months I will be making good money to bail myself out of debt right? Its going to be a little Xmas this year.

I transferred my internship to another hospital. Its closer to my home and with gas being extremely expensive, its a smart move. I can do my clinicals on the weekends and stay to work for an extra 3 or 4 hours on the weekends and make some money without having to leave the building. Nice!

Other than that, its a new school year for the little goobers. The boy has a girlfriend.. hahhaaha .. he showers everyday now.. thats a good thing.. LOL.. Before new girlfriend had to threaten to hose him off in the front yard if he didnt wash off.

The girl is single.. and she is happy so she says.. well there is this guy... she tells me yesterday.. I hope this one turns out better than the last two goofbalsl she has gone out with . The last one she was with is on his second girlfriend of the school year, yeah .. I think they've been back in school all of 3 weeks..*shakes head*

Anyhow.. on the 20th go to get my thyroid checked..well.. i guess its a med check up .. not really my thyroid since my thryoid is all shriveled up.

Oh, and still paying on that lovely $4700 hospital bill.. along with its brother and sister, the $288.00 and $56.00 bill. Yippee.. got a whole family of them..

What ticks me off is that the hospital is so disorganized in their billing. Its really sad. It takes them forever to bill my insurance, bill me, etc I could have filed for Medi-Cal a long time ago to cover the bills if I knew it was this much. Since I am in the poverty level right now. But, they waited until the last possible moment. Now, its too late. After 3 months, its too late.

So, I will be working for the same hospital when I graduate.. I figure they will get it out of me one way or another right? LOL

OKey.. back to the grind.. study study study..

Sunday, September 11, 2005

People can be such assholes..

So I left early to get to the hospital this morning. I stopped by the grocery store to deposit a check into my acct because its overdrawn. So, figured I'd get some coffee while i was at it. There at the register was some lady talkihg to the checker. The checker was saying.. "Yeah, well I'm not good til I get my6 second cup of coffee" I laughed and said.. yeah me neither.

So then I went and grabbed a water out of the coller thing and the lady turns to me and was like well what are you doing? And I had no idea what she was talking about. She says to me.. well why arent you there where the Hurricane victims are?

I was like.. I'm a student.

She said, "So? you can go there and help they need help."

I said, well I dont graduate until December, I dont have a license.

"Well you could go." said Ms. Know it all.

Meanwhile the checker is standing there staring at me.. I'm like.. can you fucking move? Like ring my stuff up before I slug this lady.

I really dont appreciate people who have no idea what my life is like.. sit back and judge me. This person, if you can call her that, had no idea what my life is like.. I've donated $65 I don't even HAVE to Hurricane victims and their pets..

I donated BLOOD on Friday, even when I went bradycardic (under 60 heart beats per minute is brady, I was 60 when I started giving and shot down after) and was so sick I stayed in bed for the rest of the day.

I have TWO kids that I have NO ONE to help me take to and from school. I HAVE to finish school.. I am going bankrupt.. and someone can sit there and JUDGE me?

Not to mention practicing without a license.. fucking moron.

My question to her is.. WHY aren't YOU there?

So then .. after the lady finally leaves.. the checker turns to me and says... "Is nursing school hard?"

Fucking morons.

No, its easy.. thats why everyone is a nurse.

Fucking morons.